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Saturday, February 03, 2007

Sat, 03 Feb 2007 10:17:58 GMT

It's late...I'm bored. I have a shoot in 4 hours, you'd think my ass would be sleeping by now, huh? NOOOPE! Not Lil' Miss Insomniac. I found an old ass pic of me at the Rosa Parks Vigil that I thought you all may enjoy. I was rolling when my mom sent this back to me. I know yall see my big brother Joe aka JKFutureSinger in the background(Love you!). Anyway, not too much to say, I got my car troubles taken care of. My health is better, so things are all good. YAY! Well, kids...I'm gone. *besos*

FK! FK! FK! FK! oh...and did I mention...F**K!!!!!

Sat, 20 Jan 2007 05:32:03 GMT

Well...this has been the MOST f**ked up night of my life. Just thought you all would like to know. Apparently some bastard/bitch decided to hit my effing car earlier and run. So now my door won't effing close. I'm PISSED. I can't even go home to get this sh*t looked at or get money. You can't exactly drive on the highway with a door that won't close. So I go to make a police report and the bitch at the desk has an attitude. I essentially went off on her. I have never cussed someone out that is supposed to be providing a service, but she was just pushing the WRONG buttons. She filled it out for me and had a cop come look at the Cavi. This motherfucker said he didn't see what was wrong. I calmy told him that I'd had this car for about 5 or 6 years now. I know what the fucking door is supposed to look like. I took my finger and circled the BIG ASS dent in the door and showed him the scratches and the paint transferred from the other car. He goes ooooh, ok and according to him, he didn't think that someone had hit the car hard enough to cause the door not to close. That's when I started yelling. I was supposed to go to the sorors' place and party. I'm feeling like F**K THE WORLD! I want to just go to sleep...I think that's what I'm about to do. *besos*

Bored

Tue, 09 Jan 2007 00:50:29 GMT

I'm sitting here doing nothing besides counting money for my dad. I'm exhausted, mentally and physically. My tuition from last semester apparently had not been paid. My mother decided to take my money on a trip to Puerto Rico, but failed to tell anyone about it, not even my stepdad. So here it is, time to register for classes again and I have a hold on my account still. Then my mother mentions just in passing that she took money out of my bank account used exclusively for tuition to fund her little trip with her girls. I mean WHAT THE FUCK? Why would you do that to your child? Anyway, she and I got into a huge fight. So all week I've been wondering whether I'll even be able to return to Central at all. Thank God for me having two responsible men in my life. My father and my stepfather came to the rescue. They went half on it and came up with about $5,000 in 2 days. Now I need another $1,790 and I can come back. I got Lappy 3000 back, since my mom got it fixed after she broke it. Merry LATE ASS Christmas to me. My friends and I went to Danny's, the male strip club in Canada...it was crazy. My girls were wildin out! There was a stripper there named Anaconda, he and Lesli became good friends that night(haha). The s.o. and I got into it this morning. I don't know...it stressed me so badly this morning. I am so dedicated to making things work between us, something that little shouldn't have even affected our situation. But...that's ok, he and I will get throught it like we always do. I'm going to take my vicodin for my back and go to sleep. *besos*

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Wed, 13 Dec 2006 17:23:07 GMT

Hmmm....love is something else!!!! It can be gone and one little reminder of that person or spending time with them can make it all come rushing back. That euphoric feeling is phenomenal...realiziing how much I missed this person being in my life. How much I can't STAND not being around them. *besos*

PS---A few things are getting on my DAMN nerves!!!!! First of all, if you leave something up to me to do and then decide to do it your damn self AT LEAST HAVE THE DECENCY TO LET ME KNOW, so i'm not wasting my time when i could be studying for my f---ing finals! Second, thanks for cutting me out of the loop on a lot of things, this shit is ridiculous. Since I'm going through some rough times, I'm not allowed to know what the hell is going on?

yellow deliciousness...sigh (another post for my girls!)

Wed, 06 Dec 2006 05:50:16 GMT

Now, question...where are the Alphas that look like Will Demps and why haven't I met any of them yet?!?!?!? I'm joking, the Alphas in my life know they are my boys!

Greek love all around! Lord have mercy that man is fine...*besos*

Photo courtesy of ybf.blogspot.com

Sunday, November 19, 2006

Sun, 19 Nov 2006 18:20:33 GMT

I'm searching for what is the hardest to find. I thought I found it, but in reality it was not. Once I find it, I'll make sure it's for good. When I find it I'll make sure I can keep it.

Wednesday, November 01, 2006

Wed, 01 Nov 2006 22:54:19 GMT

Sometimes it's necessary to get someone out of your system in order to feel good again. It's time for him to be out of my system. Sometimes it's necessary for you to remove that person from your thoughts in order to go on in the right way. He's no longer in the forefront of my thoughts. I gotta make a move....*besos*

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Wed, 11 Oct 2006 19:49:38 GMT

I feel like it's been ages since I've written in here.

I called off Curtis and I's not speaking agreement. I called him yesterday just to say hey and to make sure he knows I forgive him. He just let it slip that he wants to get back together...that's a no on my part. Also, Ace has popped up once again after like a year of us not talking to each other. He came to visit a couple weeks ago for a weekend. It didn't dawn on me how much I missed him until we started talking again. The family and I are going to meet one of my grandad's illegitimate children that no one knew about on Friday. My family has ceased surprising me.

I need to buy batteries within the next few days.

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

Tue, 26 Sep 2006 03:55:36 GMT

I miss the feeling of being in love

yo sone...i dreamt

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 17:08:24 GMT

of someone to love...of someone that would be my rock when i felt weak and couldn't take it anymore. I'm sitting back and thinking of that man and wondering if I'll find him or if I already have. I'm so tired of looking...so tired.

Not much happened yesterday, the GV Icebreaker was lame. We strolled a few times and them just danced. After that, Alissa and I left and went to Liz, Valentina, and Max's apartment; which is the most ghetto apartment complex in Allendale. That was good times, although I was PAINFULLY sober. Sky found out I was in town and drove out there. I haven't seen him in like 2 months. He's a sweetheart. He brought one of his lame ass friends with him who commenced to hitting on anything with boobs and that GAMMA strut(Oh V). I guess Sky was telling him about me on the way over and I came out to the car to flag them down and I heard, "Damn man...you're right she sexy as hell." I was like dammit, he brought some dumb ass nigga with him. His boy ended up being cool though. He thought we put something in his drink b/c he was feeling really funny after he did a couple shots. THAT was funny as hell. Oh and then I get up this morning and notice I had an IM. My away message just simply said: In bed. A certain someone decided to try and be funny and reply: I wonder with who. I couldn't even let that crap make me mad. I was just like....what the hell ever. Well I have a couple papers due this week so I'm going to head over the Celani/Fabiano and do them. *besos*